I just cant explain why and how I feel this way. I'm happy, yet sad...I'm lonely, but I'm not alone...I'm confused but it feels so good. I hate to say but I'm where I swear I would not return to, I'm breaking every rules I have ever made...Yes, this is love...but I fear to fall in it, because everything that falls gets broken.
I see your pictures, I see Love, My heart goes on a rampage when I see your smile, As you simply craft a smile on your lips, I see delight in them...but as you stretch your arms I gently push it away. As you look into my eyes I turn away brushing of the tears from my eyes. I am pushing you away as I am pushing away my fears. I fear this love, yet I wish for more...I fear to be hurt, yet I savor its anguish. I desired love...but a love built on a strong foundation...not of fear. A love that requires both of us to make it feel whole. I push my chance away with you, but i see promising future with you. so perfect it would seem, yet for the first time I saw in your eyes what I see with mine...fear. We faced the brutality of reality in our own ways...that fear is what keeps us apart. with fear there cant and never will be trust...with fear there could only be pain. I can only see myself in your eyes, I can see the same fears that would take the heart of me. My heart trembles as i would imagine a life without you now...but it gets broken as you walk closer to me. I write this because I know you feel the same....a dream it was cheating our-self with lies. Now I will make the move and push your hands away...though I wish I could hold on to it forever.
...YoGa...
