Confession....

A shadow that lurked in utter darkness....faith destroyed, hope of ever falling in love blocked by a indestructible wall of pain that accumulated as this heart has been betrayed by that very love before. A heart that was soft and filled with emotions turned to fear...fear of falling in love. It was to late to realize how turns of events made that very fear...turn to hatred. I had driven my anger and consumed my fear....a life I lived in consumed by solitude and self contempt. I learn to live a life alone....without love.

Yet I see how futile it has been, this heart has always longed for those long lost emotions. it has always wanted to be cared for...to be one with another. It was only when your beauty captivated me....your kind and loving sweet smile that brimmed with such beauty and hope....this heart has been stolen. The world stood still for a moment as I was lost blinded by that light....so easily those walls that barricade my heart was shattered to nothing....so effortlessly this heart was stolen.

They say if there is one person you are destined to meet, the whole universe will make sure you meet that person. I believe we were meant to meet....the moment our eyes met, I have lost myself with Your graceful smile, your playful laughter, your cloud of hair that sits on your shoulder with pride, your eyes that speaks only the truth, beauty and grace walk with you, a sight so lovely to see that even the moon would bow to you every night to share some of your light...all this that I have just said is a mere attempt to describe how your beauty is to my eyes, if I were to say, You were an angel sent from heaven and true beauty like you cant be found in this whole universe...that compliment in truth would be nothing compared to how I truly feel about you as there are no words in any language to describe how I truly feel....even if I could tell, I wouldn't know how.  

Your gaze has sheared this heart to deep, So deep that I could drown in your eyes never to surface again. It has showed me how much of a man I have become, it has showed me what beauty truly means, it has showed me every aspects of fruitfulness joy can give. It gave me a reason to live.....in has undeniably showed me, what love is....No actually, you defined love to me. There are a million words I would say to you, but my
heart wonders how as words cant explain this bursting emotions.

I love you....it is not loneliness or lust that brought this emotions....it is the gift that god has given you...to make a man blush at your smile, to look into your eyes and see wonders. the gift to picture a perfect world together with you....  Your eyes, I saw a light in those eyes....I saw hope in them. That it could rekindle lost emotions I used to feel....though buried in my heart, its only waiting to awaken for you...I might get hurt, I might not have what I desire, but the anguish I feel of not telling you how I truly feel hurts more then death itself.

Forgive me that I have fallen so soon, forgive me for not savoring the bonds of friendship we promised. But do not forgive me for loving you as it was utterly your fault....I wouldn't say fate has lead me to this, I would say lost hopes has given me a clear picture that...love still lives within me, it was only buried deep inside...waiting for a chance to show itself....and you, have awoken that love. I could only thank you for it...

I do not expect you to love me....I do not expect you to hate me either....I only wish for you to know how much you truly mean to me and how much I love you.....I love you with all I have, with my soul...as pure as it could be.


.....YoGa.....