Stormy Seas....

I wonder how I have survived, 

The hurricanes and storms that crushed my soul tormenting every bit of strength I had left to pursue even a glimpse of light, over the dark clouds that enveloped the skies above me.... as I lay floating hoping I would reach the shore....

I saw it, shimmering but slowly bright. 

I wondered if my time was at an end and that the heavens were ready to have me....but soon I realized it wasn't the heavens but it was just the rays of light from the sun, escaping through the cloud as it breaks apart....it gave me warmth that filled my eyes, but most importantly....it gave me hope. 

The seas went silent, the storms bowed to its might....the sound of waves began to streamline like silk on the wind. as the sun sets, it showed me the beauty of its end, like it was saying "goodbye for now".... the horizon it showed me. such beauty as it sunk gently into the seas. 

As the day darkened, fear enveloped my heart but it never lasted. The Moon came out to greet me with a joyful smile...her silver light was addictive as it was to beautiful that even the stars followed her as she came. As I stared at this beauty....many things came to my mind....the galaxies, millions of stars and the billions of planets...but one thing came clearly to my mind................ You...

.

Your beauty and grace, the things I am yet to discover from, the sun reminds me of your grace and warmth, the moon reminds me of the prettiest smile you gave that stole my heart, the sound of waves reminds me of your voice that resounds perfect music to my ears,  the stars reminds me of your eyes as I would always easily get lost in them, basically you have saved me from the storm that invaded my heart and showed me true beauty.....

To me...Your beauty transcends all life, a beauty no angels could match...

...YoGa...
 

A Sinner Who Met His Savior....

I once led a life full of shadow,

it was always dark and shallow.
I walked the sins of men,
yet i went to far that it became a trend.

I was innocent for I was young,
but it was to late to realise being dumb.
I prayed that none would follow,
to a life darkened by shadow.

When I realise the path I once led,
I gambled my life wit a stupid bet.
I thought pride will always stay tall,
yet eventually everything will fall.

Everyone has their flaw,
but what "provoke's" is karma's law.
I bleed tear's of suferring,
all I cud do is some toughening.

I led my life with endless dispair,
yet all I had was my heart to spare.
Now I realise what the world has become,
I only wished for sadnes to be gone.

Thank the lord I saw my light,
simmering but slowly bright.
My saviour finally arrived,
but my love was deprived.

This mind has never been at rest,
the moment I lay on ur chest.
A love beyond understanding,
yet in the end was demanding.

To demand only nothing but the truth,
but everything was written in a book.
I read it all and I remembered your tale,
how can I not fear that this relationship will fail?

I have done my mistake but it has been forgiven,
but I still wonder if I have place up in heaven?
Though I'm disappointed I will learn to forgive,
but I doubt I will ever forget.

I have put on a mask to hide the tears,
yet all I realy did was hide my fears.
I have driven my anger and consumed my fears,
I did it all with the help of beers.

When I finally realise the truth of life,
is it wrong to say your my wife?
My mistake must have been to ask,
now I'm blamed to hide behind a mask.


It was never ment to last,
cant you see that it is the past.
To wash it all and clame its royalty,
all I asked is love and loyalty.

The sins has been kindled by the mind,
but I never hated for I was so kind.
One day you will realise that I was fooling,
just to know how we are doing.

For this heart to never break to shard,
all I can do now is to pray hard.
You have finally brought out my love,
now let us be a couple of dove.

We have read each others past,
now lets never let it last.
I know I have changed since youu came to my life,
all I ask is to claim your my wife.

This heart has been thru hard shit,
for you I dont mind going thru hardship.
Try holding my hand for instance,
I swear to take you the distance.


I would go thru hell,
just to hear that marriage bell.
To kneel down and ask you in hand,
maybe one day with the marriage band.

Bound to each being bold,
what else do I need in this world.
I will create a world of my own,
even if its a small town.

Like a kid who has a toy...its a world full of joy.
let me tell you that its a world to dream for......

you light up my world...

...YoGa...

Confession....

A shadow that lurked in utter darkness....faith destroyed, hope of ever falling in love blocked by a indestructible wall of pain that accumulated as this heart has been betrayed by that very love before. A heart that was soft and filled with emotions turned to fear...fear of falling in love. It was to late to realize how turns of events made that very fear...turn to hatred. I had driven my anger and consumed my fear....a life I lived in consumed by solitude and self contempt. I learn to live a life alone....without love.

Yet I see how futile it has been, this heart has always longed for those long lost emotions. it has always wanted to be cared for...to be one with another. It was only when your beauty captivated me....your kind and loving sweet smile that brimmed with such beauty and hope....this heart has been stolen. The world stood still for a moment as I was lost blinded by that light....so easily those walls that barricade my heart was shattered to nothing....so effortlessly this heart was stolen.

They say if there is one person you are destined to meet, the whole universe will make sure you meet that person. I believe we were meant to meet....the moment our eyes met, I have lost myself with Your graceful smile, your playful laughter, your cloud of hair that sits on your shoulder with pride, your eyes that speaks only the truth, beauty and grace walk with you, a sight so lovely to see that even the moon would bow to you every night to share some of your light...all this that I have just said is a mere attempt to describe how your beauty is to my eyes, if I were to say, You were an angel sent from heaven and true beauty like you cant be found in this whole universe...that compliment in truth would be nothing compared to how I truly feel about you as there are no words in any language to describe how I truly feel....even if I could tell, I wouldn't know how.  

Your gaze has sheared this heart to deep, So deep that I could drown in your eyes never to surface again. It has showed me how much of a man I have become, it has showed me what beauty truly means, it has showed me every aspects of fruitfulness joy can give. It gave me a reason to live.....in has undeniably showed me, what love is....No actually, you defined love to me. There are a million words I would say to you, but my
heart wonders how as words cant explain this bursting emotions.

I love you....it is not loneliness or lust that brought this emotions....it is the gift that god has given you...to make a man blush at your smile, to look into your eyes and see wonders. the gift to picture a perfect world together with you....  Your eyes, I saw a light in those eyes....I saw hope in them. That it could rekindle lost emotions I used to feel....though buried in my heart, its only waiting to awaken for you...I might get hurt, I might not have what I desire, but the anguish I feel of not telling you how I truly feel hurts more then death itself.

Forgive me that I have fallen so soon, forgive me for not savoring the bonds of friendship we promised. But do not forgive me for loving you as it was utterly your fault....I wouldn't say fate has lead me to this, I would say lost hopes has given me a clear picture that...love still lives within me, it was only buried deep inside...waiting for a chance to show itself....and you, have awoken that love. I could only thank you for it...

I do not expect you to love me....I do not expect you to hate me either....I only wish for you to know how much you truly mean to me and how much I love you.....I love you with all I have, with my soul...as pure as it could be.


.....YoGa.....

The Best Smile....

That smile, it takes me awhile to explain those deep emotions i feel when i see it. It is kind, it shows care, it defines beauty but most of all, it is the sweetest. No man would have just a glance at it, as it is captivating and addictive....A smile that would shine across the darkest nights, like the moonlight on the dark sky.It shows in your eyes, the glimmering twinkle in those eyes as the warmest smile appear,

It comes straight from your heart and lights others like a beacon. A feeling where men would forever drown, as it turns them upside down.Your smile could explain dreams, it takes pain away, it makes the weak stronger and the sad, rejoice.....A smile like an angel, no stars would match its beauty.

I love the way your face brightens, such love, joy and happiness. such dignity and grace...A God given gift that only few have, to have both beauty that could stop a man at his feet.
I am proud to be one of those man who has fallen for your smile, addicted and mesmerized. Unexplained emotions bursting inside where all i wish to do is see your smile again....

It could be my worst day, a smile of yours takes that away,
It brightens my day, and promises everything's okay,
as troubles last all night, all i need is your smile to know its alright.
as your smile does so many things, i know i can accomplish anything.
Your smile is a promise, that i wont fall into my own demise,
your smile destroys space for doubt, as it always lightens my heart.
It is definitely what i need and cant live without......

the joy you have given since you have came into this life, all i can do is to promise that i will always make you smile and laugh....as i truly adore the little dimples that form when u smile. A promise i made to myself....to never let it fade, to keep this angels beautiful smile alive....even in a gloomy day, even when the sun doesn't shine.... this loyal lover of your smile will always finds hes way to make you smile again.  

Now, smile...as it breathes life into me. 

...YoGa...

Stranger Behind The Wall.....

Hi there stranger,I hear you playing the swing behind this wall.
I hear your laughter like the birds sing for the sun rise,

I hear you voice as beautiful like the sound of music,
I have been admiring your voice silently now, waiting at this wall...hoping somehow you would hear me call.
I have been longing for a glimpse, to meet the stranger who brings joy to my saddened life.
As I hear the the creaks of your swing, i could only imagine....your hair blown by the wind as you swung by, the smile that could make a person blush, the beauty that would define gods creation, a prove why men could get shy. 

This wall....this wall that divides me from my other half, how do i get past it?you sound so close yet so far.. my stranger do you hear my cries? do you hear me calling for you? day and night I waited for your reply...the stars and moon heard me. As tears flood my cheek, all I can do is pray you answer my pleads....to save me from the blinding fate of solitude, a world sinners tread...a carnival of pain that binds me with my own shadow....a lonely worlds that craves for a chance. 

I wont give up, for I still hear your voice....that itself gives me hope to one day laugh with you to. forgive me that I am not strong enough to break this wall, forgive me that I am not tall enough to climb it either...but don't you worry as my heart only longs to meet you...as my eyes finally meet yours, hear me speak; 

You are the mortal skin, which takes shape of and angel,
You are that beat to my heart that would speak a million reasons to love.
You are the reason i found my awakened emotions.
You are the reason i have hope to laugh again.
You are the purpose for me being a man. 
You, the person that I indulge with my love....

My stranger whom I have only heard...so sleek, so smooth you robbed my heart away, for a ransom of an eternity of love. I am mesmerized by your voice....a voice that makes me feel your chest is the safest place, locked away from pain and sorrow, your voice gently wraps me with a bond of utmost perfection...

When i am tall enough, i will climb over this wall that separates us But would you wait for me? I have questions that need answers, would you teach me, my stranger? teach me how to laugh? teach me how to smile....would you safe me from shadow? would you fill up this hollow heart of mine with love?  would you be with me forever? Would you fall deeply in love as I have in you.....

My graceful stranger.....when I am above this wall, would you answer me?

...YoGa...

Showers From Above...

 I always cursed my own life, the anxiety, anger and hatred I couldn't suppress enveloped my chest with loathing for the people around me....but when I stop to look at the sky, I realized how small I am. There is an endless world spreading before me. before me what I see is endless peace, I thought only that even here, there is a blind world yet unlit by God...rolling along the extreme edge of pleasure, is it only my eyes that realizes my faith? that I must walk through this world and live my fate? the sky.....ah the sky, it was almost as if that light was a shower, illuminating that small me leaving my shadow behind...washing away my sins. At that very moment I realized...I was happy to have been born for the first time again. At the very last I was able to cast my solitude and grasp my ambition.......to be the closest to the sky. 
I soared where no men could go, I flew over continents and over mountains so high...I soared through the skies....not like an Eagle....but like the skies itself..a feeling of great joy that I was the sky, watching over below where I once stood admiring it. Time has only proven me what it allows a man to achieve...Time is prove that people have lived,  and every person lives the time that has been given to them....that is time, So why don't you live it to its greatest extend??? 

...YoGa...

I cant hate you....

Weather it was a cold icy night graced by moonlight, or the warm days with the sun hiding behind the thick fogs, i watched over you and have always only thought of you. it was my sole happiness quietly observing you. as i watched you bloodied by scars of your past, my heart weeped blood as though it was run through by a sword. Now as you watch me, confused and hurt....you will never know the pain i endured within. You say "im sorry" do not be....for i know I loved a women who does not feel sorrow but feels only the guilt of falling in love with me. But please remember.....I cant hate you for this pain and I never will.

...YoGa...