Confession....

A shadow that lurked in utter darkness....faith destroyed, hope of ever falling in love blocked by a indestructible wall of pain that accumulated as this heart has been betrayed by that very love before. A heart that was soft and filled with emotions turned to fear...fear of falling in love. It was to late to realize how turns of events made that very fear...turn to hatred. I had driven my anger and consumed my fear....a life I lived in consumed by solitude and self contempt. I learn to live a life alone....without love.

Yet I see how futile it has been, this heart has always longed for those long lost emotions. it has always wanted to be cared for...to be one with another. It was only when your beauty captivated me....your kind and loving sweet smile that brimmed with such beauty and hope....this heart has been stolen. The world stood still for a moment as I was lost blinded by that light....so easily those walls that barricade my heart was shattered to nothing....so effortlessly this heart was stolen.

They say if there is one person you are destined to meet, the whole universe will make sure you meet that person. I believe we were meant to meet....the moment our eyes met, I have lost myself with Your graceful smile, your playful laughter, your cloud of hair that sits on your shoulder with pride, your eyes that speaks only the truth, beauty and grace walk with you, a sight so lovely to see that even the moon would bow to you every night to share some of your light...all this that I have just said is a mere attempt to describe how your beauty is to my eyes, if I were to say, You were an angel sent from heaven and true beauty like you cant be found in this whole universe...that compliment in truth would be nothing compared to how I truly feel about you as there are no words in any language to describe how I truly feel....even if I could tell, I wouldn't know how.  

Your gaze has sheared this heart to deep, So deep that I could drown in your eyes never to surface again. It has showed me how much of a man I have become, it has showed me what beauty truly means, it has showed me every aspects of fruitfulness joy can give. It gave me a reason to live.....in has undeniably showed me, what love is....No actually, you defined love to me. There are a million words I would say to you, but my
heart wonders how as words cant explain this bursting emotions.

I love you....it is not loneliness or lust that brought this emotions....it is the gift that god has given you...to make a man blush at your smile, to look into your eyes and see wonders. the gift to picture a perfect world together with you....  Your eyes, I saw a light in those eyes....I saw hope in them. That it could rekindle lost emotions I used to feel....though buried in my heart, its only waiting to awaken for you...I might get hurt, I might not have what I desire, but the anguish I feel of not telling you how I truly feel hurts more then death itself.

Forgive me that I have fallen so soon, forgive me for not savoring the bonds of friendship we promised. But do not forgive me for loving you as it was utterly your fault....I wouldn't say fate has lead me to this, I would say lost hopes has given me a clear picture that...love still lives within me, it was only buried deep inside...waiting for a chance to show itself....and you, have awoken that love. I could only thank you for it...

I do not expect you to love me....I do not expect you to hate me either....I only wish for you to know how much you truly mean to me and how much I love you.....I love you with all I have, with my soul...as pure as it could be.


.....YoGa.....

The Best Smile....

That smile, it takes me awhile to explain those deep emotions i feel when i see it. It is kind, it shows care, it defines beauty but most of all, it is the sweetest. No man would have just a glance at it, as it is captivating and addictive....A smile that would shine across the darkest nights, like the moonlight on the dark sky.It shows in your eyes, the glimmering twinkle in those eyes as the warmest smile appear,

It comes straight from your heart and lights others like a beacon. A feeling where men would forever drown, as it turns them upside down.Your smile could explain dreams, it takes pain away, it makes the weak stronger and the sad, rejoice.....A smile like an angel, no stars would match its beauty.

I love the way your face brightens, such love, joy and happiness. such dignity and grace...A God given gift that only few have, to have both beauty that could stop a man at his feet.
I am proud to be one of those man who has fallen for your smile, addicted and mesmerized. Unexplained emotions bursting inside where all i wish to do is see your smile again....

It could be my worst day, a smile of yours takes that away,
It brightens my day, and promises everything's okay,
as troubles last all night, all i need is your smile to know its alright.
as your smile does so many things, i know i can accomplish anything.
Your smile is a promise, that i wont fall into my own demise,
your smile destroys space for doubt, as it always lightens my heart.
It is definitely what i need and cant live without......

the joy you have given since you have came into this life, all i can do is to promise that i will always make you smile and laugh....as i truly adore the little dimples that form when u smile. A promise i made to myself....to never let it fade, to keep this angels beautiful smile alive....even in a gloomy day, even when the sun doesn't shine.... this loyal lover of your smile will always finds hes way to make you smile again.  

Now, smile...as it breathes life into me. 

...YoGa...

Stranger Behind The Wall.....

Hi there stranger,I hear you playing the swing behind this wall.
I hear your laughter like the birds sing for the sun rise,

I hear you voice as beautiful like the sound of music,
I have been admiring your voice silently now, waiting at this wall...hoping somehow you would hear me call.
I have been longing for a glimpse, to meet the stranger who brings joy to my saddened life.
As I hear the the creaks of your swing, i could only imagine....your hair blown by the wind as you swung by, the smile that could make a person blush, the beauty that would define gods creation, a prove why men could get shy. 

This wall....this wall that divides me from my other half, how do i get past it?you sound so close yet so far.. my stranger do you hear my cries? do you hear me calling for you? day and night I waited for your reply...the stars and moon heard me. As tears flood my cheek, all I can do is pray you answer my pleads....to save me from the blinding fate of solitude, a world sinners tread...a carnival of pain that binds me with my own shadow....a lonely worlds that craves for a chance. 

I wont give up, for I still hear your voice....that itself gives me hope to one day laugh with you to. forgive me that I am not strong enough to break this wall, forgive me that I am not tall enough to climb it either...but don't you worry as my heart only longs to meet you...as my eyes finally meet yours, hear me speak; 

You are the mortal skin, which takes shape of and angel,
You are that beat to my heart that would speak a million reasons to love.
You are the reason i found my awakened emotions.
You are the reason i have hope to laugh again.
You are the purpose for me being a man. 
You, the person that I indulge with my love....

My stranger whom I have only heard...so sleek, so smooth you robbed my heart away, for a ransom of an eternity of love. I am mesmerized by your voice....a voice that makes me feel your chest is the safest place, locked away from pain and sorrow, your voice gently wraps me with a bond of utmost perfection...

When i am tall enough, i will climb over this wall that separates us But would you wait for me? I have questions that need answers, would you teach me, my stranger? teach me how to laugh? teach me how to smile....would you safe me from shadow? would you fill up this hollow heart of mine with love?  would you be with me forever? Would you fall deeply in love as I have in you.....

My graceful stranger.....when I am above this wall, would you answer me?

...YoGa...

Showers From Above...

 I always cursed my own life, the anxiety, anger and hatred I couldn't suppress enveloped my chest with loathing for the people around me....but when I stop to look at the sky, I realized how small I am. There is an endless world spreading before me. before me what I see is endless peace, I thought only that even here, there is a blind world yet unlit by God...rolling along the extreme edge of pleasure, is it only my eyes that realizes my faith? that I must walk through this world and live my fate? the sky.....ah the sky, it was almost as if that light was a shower, illuminating that small me leaving my shadow behind...washing away my sins. At that very moment I realized...I was happy to have been born for the first time again. At the very last I was able to cast my solitude and grasp my ambition.......to be the closest to the sky. 
I soared where no men could go, I flew over continents and over mountains so high...I soared through the skies....not like an Eagle....but like the skies itself..a feeling of great joy that I was the sky, watching over below where I once stood admiring it. Time has only proven me what it allows a man to achieve...Time is prove that people have lived,  and every person lives the time that has been given to them....that is time, So why don't you live it to its greatest extend??? 

...YoGa...

I cant hate you....

Weather it was a cold icy night graced by moonlight, or the warm days with the sun hiding behind the thick fogs, i watched over you and have always only thought of you. it was my sole happiness quietly observing you. as i watched you bloodied by scars of your past, my heart weeped blood as though it was run through by a sword. Now as you watch me, confused and hurt....you will never know the pain i endured within. You say "im sorry" do not be....for i know I loved a women who does not feel sorrow but feels only the guilt of falling in love with me. But please remember.....I cant hate you for this pain and I never will.

...YoGa...

The Undeniable Truth

I have heard many tales, Love stories from good turning bad, well I had my own share of pain, being a part of the love fantasy that i got my self into. 

Well let me say this my fellow heart broken people.....girls and guys, Love is true but what happens when it is tarnished by lies, deceit and betrayal?  it turns into CRAP!!! well at the start it will all be fine....beautiful....a  
dream and it would seem that she or he is the one for you, and in the end either one fucks it up and there it goes.....down the drain. Why? has this question popped up in your brains? I'm sure many times but being as selfish as we all are living in the materialistic world given everything and spoon fed, we would only blame the other and never give "the benefit of the doubt" a chance to take place. I'm sure we all have checked on our gf/bf to see if they are cheating on us (if u say no suck my middle finger). Have we put our self in their shoes? It would have solved lots of misunderstanding..... 

There are cases where we are loyal, truthful, and loved them with everything we had.... basically*take a bullet for them* but they betray and cheat all we held pure to them.....then even if we could forgive them, the trust will never be the same and in the end as much as we try to hold on to it.....it will eventually fail (trust me been there). Now what do we all do after we face such issues where they leave you for another guy/girl???
Cry like mad, sulk, drama, some go mad, some commit suicide, try to kill the person, all kinds of shit because it hurts.....at the pain is worst then death itself. 

Now how do we move on then? people have many ways of moving on, rebound relationships, having a sex spree, flirt with every possible person, or even turning lesbian/gay. the most chose to hate the person for the betrayal he or she has committed to break their heart and leaving. well hating the person is good because eventually the love you had for her will turn to hatred, but at the same time we would make a mistake of treating the the next relationship with the burst amount of hatred left inside. Insecurities takes over....so we screw it up again.

well, all im trying to say is that, we are human, we make mistakes and we learn from them and hell yeah! we will keep making new mistakes but we still learn from them...haha. so its always better to be cautious....choose the person who deserve the love and give your heart. Learn from our past relationships..... some will say forget the past and move on....i will say dont, use it as a teaching, remember it but regret it because you made a mistake being with a cheat who left you for another. If you people say 'Love is blind' or 'Love at first sight' please show me your face so i can punch it so hard and get you back to reality.....stop listening to your parents stories because at their time love cant be exchanged like our generation. And yeah for those who think karma will screw your gf/bf for cheating on you.....well go find the person who created the word Karma AND KICK HIS ASS because for all you know you will be long dead by the time karma hits her or him. 

Move on.....we live life only once, so lets not waste tears over wasted people, they have already wasted the memories and pure love you held dear so why waste time for this people. yeah its easier said then done....its hard to move on because you loved them sincerely but ask your self....You going to stay single for the rest of your life thinking about that cheat is it????? the best way to punish them is to Move on and live your life and show them your happy....they will soon realize what they have lost and that your happy without them. And if you finally met the right person your getting married to......send your ex the wedding invitation, And see their ass boil....hahahahaha. 

...YoGa...

A ReD RoSe For A Dance....

Love could not be perfected by dead as it does not die in a tomb, yet death is a great price to pay for a red rose as life is precious to all. That being said, still love is better then life....what is the heart alone compared to the heart that loves? for true love is wiser then philosophy and mightier then power, as pure as crystals. The birth of love in one's heart is as beautiful as a rose blossom.

You told me you would dance with me if i brought you a red rose....here is the reddest rose in the that i give to you, but would you wear it next to your heart tonight for it would whisper my love as we danced under the silver moon.

Forgive me for poverty as i am unable to treasure you with jewels that cost much more then a flower. Some would say love is not half as useful as logic, it does not prove anything and it is always telling things of fantasy....to be unpractical, but I would say...love is better then wisdom, more precious then riches, fairer then the moon, no fire can burn it and no water can wash it away.

I spoke your name but no one came, the moon heard your name but to my own hurt i wandered away.Yet this love is so strong that it still abides in me patiently waiting to give you this rose. My love for you, ever was it so strong though i have looked upon evil and looked upon good, i hope this love never departs for if this love dies....surely i would die with it to.

Please accept this flower, as its ruby red colour came from the bleeding still heart of mine that loves you and beats only for the hope of reuniting with you in this one dance.

...YoGa...