Categorizing A Human....

Have you ever judge a person simply by the way they talk, the way they react...or may be just by the persons character? They say every Human in this world are Unique in their own way...there are none like them yet share a couple of similarities with others. To some up a few special characters I have met along the way...based on a book I have read and the experience I have shared with countless people around me. I came to a certain conclusion that every person has a "special ability" either for good or bad. Categorized under this few....Now! which one are you?

The Conqueror : Special ability - (Power of Influence). Have you ever met a person who you just cant seem to win an argument with? A person whom you think has to much pride yet to look up to or have some jealousy over? or you just want to follow him no matter where he goes or what he does? well this is the person.... One of the rarest characteristic of a person, sheer will power to lead and conquer all in their path, they could influence others easily to follow their path to what they desire, for good or the bad. their word speaks power, they are usually very intellectual, cunning, mischievous, and very good at chess game. they usually have a group they mingle with yet they are always in the highest order. Although they might show how wise they truly are, this people are always thinking on behalf of you...they never like to be overshadowed yet they never step on others...always trying to help, and a fun person to party with although The alpha male of the pack. 

The Magician : Special ability - (Power of Manipulation). Almost similar to the conqueror, this person doesn't strive to be a leader or influence any, yet more quiet and unpredictable... able to manipulate situations and others around him to obtain his desires. He would use any dirty tricks up his sleeve to make believe his stories yet his motive is always the opposite. If you see a person who could make others drunk in a party yet he alone would be sober till d end...this is him. they are usually a womanizer, and they seek the weakest part of the others to target them. It is hard to see this persons true colors but when he silently moves away once he has what he needs from you...only then will you realize.

The Clown : Special ability - (Power of Laughter). Easy to spot, its the person whom even staring at their face for a second would make you laugh...clumsy yet entertaining, you just want to annoy and piss them off because its just fun. They usually have many friends, very entertaining and funny...they always leave a mess at a party, most of them act stupid and dumb just to entertain people around them, they dont show pride or ego...and could accept humiliation and easily turn it back at you by making it a joke. Most of them are caring and Lovable yet they dont have many admirers due to their happy go lucky nature that make them seem less responsible and just a mere clown to hang out with. 

The Hound : Special ability - (Power of Tracking). If you know your facebook has been hacked, its most likely by this person. This person could stalk you where ever you are...they are obsessive and over protective. Very insecure and secretive...they know every truth that you could hide. They always expect the worst, negative thoughts...this people usually dont last long in a relationship because they could never trust their partner. They are easily hurt by others due to their past yet they could have a sharp burst when they are stepped on to many times. They are usually superstitious and pray often. Always fearing the worst....most of them waste their life away always thinking inside the box.

The Ashura : Special ability - (Power of Fear). Have you ever looked at someone and thought he looked Scary? this person has a frightful face, they are usually stern and aggressive, easy to anger and someone you just dont want to mess with, although people judge them this way, they have a soft heart and also a very caring person, they instill fear to educate others. They are usually proud and boastful yet they love all yet have difficulties in showing them due to their stern nature. 

The Lawyer :  Special ability - (Power of Deceit). This person could lie their way through even death...everything they speak and say are at least 50 to 70% lies. They are usually very proud yet they are not at the top among their friends. They lie only to make them look on par with the others. Only those who could understand this truth and accept their lies could be good friends...yet most avoid because of their lies. Though they lie most of their lives, yet they are trustworthy when it comes to getting a thing done. They usually try their best to prove their word. 

The Don : Special ability - (Power of Intimidation). More then a Don, it is better said that this person acts like one. very proud of being a so called gangster yet in heart hes the most frightened in the group. Doesnt like to be stepped over. Most of them love to boast about their fights and gangs especially after a couple of beers. They would intimidate you with their stories...

The Beserker : Special ability - (Power of Force). This person is a gambler, they could trow their life in the line if they have to. Often adventurers...challenging and always setting the bar higher. They are sore losers and never wish to leave the table without winning, which they usually do win. A powerful spirit of life where they bring all characters together in a topic of adventures. Its fun to hang around them as they have interesting stories to tell...more of an outgoing person and takes life easy.

The Buddha : Special ability - (Power of Healing). This person loves all around them and could get along with anyone, they don't have many enemies yet they have many friends. They share the feeling of security as they are protective and caring to others. They are very patient and have the ability to see into others pain. Have you had a friend who notices every-time your down and sad, he comes in to lend a shoulder and comfort. Usually a sweet talker and able to cheer those around them with words. They are loyal and lovable yet are often cheated/manipulated due to their kind nature. 

The chameleon  : Special ability - (Power of adaptability). This person could adjust to the worst sort of situation, He has no ego, nor pride...he doesn't know shame...and lives a happy life. Yet he keeps his sorrow and pain deep in his heart that he rarely shares because he wears a hidden mask to block his real character from the world. This person could go as low as possible or as high as possible in any groups adapting to their characters. This person is slow to anger but his true colors only shows when he gets angry.

        

Number 1 - Numerology

The Number one is Ruled by the Planet SUN. Among all the numerlogical number the 1 is the

first to arrive therefore the leader of all numbers, All other numbers lack the leadership therefore the 1 is expressed to be born leaders for being truly strong and dominating. The 1 is a doer, a powerful force that produces results and does not allow anything or anyone to limit its potential. The 1 is aggressive, a necessary energy for creating and producing. The 1 is always in the forefront: a spear-point directing and leading others. The shape of the number 1, just like the shape of all other symbols, reflects its meaning; it walks upright with pride and purpose. Strong, determined, unwavering and with specific goals in mind, the 1 can turn dreams and ideas into reality. It pushes obstacles aside or simply drills right through them. 

The 1 are comfortable spending hours alone in their thoughts and rarely get bored and rather be alone then to suffer small talk, the 1 loves deeply but if betrayed it is next to impossible to forgive them. All the 1 craves is to reach the highest of order and the chance to focus their attention on a meaningful existence and if anything comes in their way will be crushed without mercy let it be their family or lover.

The 1 grows, transforms and improves in perpetuity, precisely the way Mother Nature does. After all, nature's primal force and most basic building block is the number 1. Nature knows no mercy and its cruelty can be heartbreaking. However, it knows balance and gives life indiscriminately and without judgment. The number 1 has a similar built-in perfection and balance; you can force a change here or there, but negative repercussions are likely.

The 1 tends to have a simple, straightforward view of life and its many complexities. It trusts its own ability to separate right from wrong. It doesn't waste time on abstract ideas or anything else that isn't in line with its pursuit of results. The 1 is no  philosopher and certainly no spiritual explorer. It is a pragmatist, a ruthless conqueror and a warrior extraordinaire. It is individualistic and independent to a fault. It will attempt to force its values and opinions on you but it won't accept, or even listen to, yours.

The 1 does not hesitate when it senses a need for confrontation. It is extremely stubborn, but also courageous and willing to try anything new if it sees promise, even at great danger. It is, if you haven't guessed, the most wisest of all numbers. There is a certain quality, a sense of honor and responsibility that demands our respect, and it has a sense of justice that cannot be denied. The number 1 cannot witness injustice without jumping in and setting things straight.

Its purity of purpose is an admirable quality of the number 1. It sees things for what they are and hypocrisy or superficial doesn't stand a chance. Befriend a 1 and you have a friend for life. You can poke fun at a 1 and not have to worry about hurt feelings. A 1 has a great capacity for humor, including the self-deprecating kind. If, however, you try to cater to a 1 to win its love or friendship, you'll lose its respect instead. Stand up to a 1 and you may lose the fight, but you'll gain its admiration. If you are in trouble and need help, the number 1 is who you want on your side -- there is no more dedicated protector or braver partner. If you are in love, the number 1 is the most difficult of all lovers: demanding, confrontational, impatient and they focus mainly on their goals then their relationship. If you find yourself in the service of a 1, you will be pushed to the limit, abused at all hours, and incapable of living up to its expectations. But you will also, without a doubt, become the best you could ever be. If the 1 is your enemy, you will be crushed ruthlessly without mercy.

If you yourself are a 1, your happiness and satisfaction will come from your work more than from any other source. A 1 would be very successful and intimidating in his career compared to the other numbers due to his will to rule , as well as extremely dangerous if their pride is messed with.

once bitten, twice shy...

I just cant explain why and how I feel this way. I'm happy, yet sad...I'm lonely, but I'm not alone...I'm confused but it feels so good. I hate to say but I'm where I swear I would not return to, I'm breaking every rules I have ever made...Yes, this is love...but I fear to fall in it, because everything that falls gets broken.
I see your pictures, I see Love, My heart goes on a rampage when I see your smile, As you simply craft a smile on your lips, I see delight in them...but as you stretch your arms I gently push it away. As you look into my eyes I turn away brushing of the tears from my eyes. I am pushing you away as I am pushing away my fears. I fear this love, yet I wish for more...I fear to be hurt, yet I savor its anguish. I desired love...but a love built on a strong foundation...not of fear. A love that requires both of us to make it feel whole. I push my chance away with you, but i see promising future with you. so perfect it would seem, yet for the first time I saw in your eyes what I see with mine...fear. We faced the brutality of reality in our own ways...that fear is what keeps us apart. with fear there cant and never will be trust...with fear there could only be pain. I can only see myself in your eyes, I can see the same fears that would take the heart of me. My heart trembles as i would imagine a life without you now...but it gets broken as you walk closer to me. I write this because I know you feel the same....a dream it was cheating our-self with lies. Now I will make the move and push your hands away...though I wish I could hold on to it forever.


...YoGa...

Parallel Universe

Walking slowly on the shores of blue with our hands together....you, with your beautiful black dress glittering under the moon and me, as poise as I could be to match that beauty....we walked for long. Me with every attempt trying to make you laugh as it was my utter joy hearing those musical laughter. We laughed and

talked for hours both never bored of each other...we sat by the beach allowing the winds to brush our

skins...while you looked up to the skies admiring the stars...I was looking at the brightest one beside me. hair that sits on your shoulder proudly as the wind gently blows them...eyes that glitter brighter then the endless stars above. Gently you rest your head on my shoulder...a shoulder you could always lean on. I continued to stare at your beauty as I gently raised your eyes to meet mine... with only the sound of the waves, under the silver moonlight, with billions of stars above us...I looked into your magnificent eyes lost in love...I said " You are every joy I always longed for, my every dream that made reality...you are the sole reason I am happy...I just want you to know that my heart will always be for you...because I am madly in love with you...I love you" and at that very last word...our lips touched...a magical moment with all barriers of shyness destroyed. We kissed gently with our eyes closed...only to brake apart to give each other a hug. You replied me saying "I love you to" and gave the most beautiful smile that has ever been seen....with a future left ahead for us both...with a world of just you and me...I put my arms around you as we continued our journey.  

...YoGa...

I See You...

Forsaken by thoughts, my mortal soul wondered...through caves and misty mountains yet there was never a purpose for me to tread its journey...there was no journey, there was no path. Aimlessly wondering the world with just false hope... yet

something kept me going? was it that I was to proud to succumb to failure? I did not know yet I walked my sinful path dancing under the rains of the past...seeking only but one thing....Hope. Years has passed and my age has turned its course...no path was shown yet stony rocks and the whispers of dreams. As I fell to my knees realizing the cruel reality of life, as tears poured washing the feet...there was but a sparkle of silver dust below...trembling with joy I raised my head one last time to look up upon my fate...shimmering faintly I saw the light...there it was all along. My silver moon, waiting to carry me when I fall...it illuminated my path as I walked...closer to the end of my journey accepting my end of this world

what I saw was not the gates of heaven...yet it was a Girl...as I stood in shock, a hand reached out to me shining like silver pearls...hair that gracefully sat on her shoulder blowing to the silent wind...a face that glowed like the sun...eyes deeper then the farthest stars....yet her smile....her smile..as it simply curved flawlessly, At that very moment I felt alive all over again, the pain of the past washed away...it was worth every pain this journey lashed against my will. She stood there......Like the

morning sun thy shined upon me comparable to the paradise I see through my deepest dreams. It shines away brightly touching souls with utter joy...angelic grace and flawless posture, With a smile that would smite even the heavens above...a mortal like me could never stood for long against its beauty. Tempted to live a life just to see a glimpse of its beauty...yet fearful to look upon a beauty so mesmerizing. Wishing every moment I would be a tear from those eyes gently flowing down. It was through you, faith was restored that beauty resides...through you the beauty of Gods wonders was known to men. It was through you men's worth was defined...as my thought ran deep, my eyes gazed upon your eyes...such power it held, like the stormy seas that could destroy all, yet there was patience and simplicity in them like the moonlight. As I was lost deep by its

waves...feeling all the hidden pain you shadowed over time Only to realize the smile was to hide the swell of tears buried within those eyes. A purpose was known to me...a chance for me to forever be of need...A promise was made to forever make that smile blossom. For every tear that slips by those smooth skin, a part of my life would be washed away...If i were allowed to...i would keep thy close for the warmth of your presence...not for my own but for the selfish joy of watching your smile...i could live a life bearing those burden cloaked by those eyes...for all that it is....all that you smile..There will forever be this mortal soul wishing your joy and rejoicing by your smile. To let you know that...I see you. :-)    

...YoGa...            

Dreams....

Please show me the way.. Let me see your dream, Come to me...as you behold the true nature of humanity, to unite love beneath a banner of love yet all dreams disappear when the dreamer awakens. It was inevitable that I would meet you on this path, for we share dreams and will learn the conclusion of our endless dreams. Do not falter, dreams lies beyond the horizon, never stop seeking it though its unreachable, for the sake of reality, I had a dream once....I remember that face, I was lying on a pit of an endless expanse of darkness, she approached smiling gently yet she had tears in her eyes hidden. I could see she was happy from the bottom of her heart...happy she found me, so happy that it seemed like it was her, not me that was saved from that pit. Even though I was at the brink of losing hope, that girl was so grateful that it made me jealous. "thank you" she told me, and by saying that i realized, by saving me....it was her she has saved. A dream I have nurtured and held to wishing i could find someone who would feel the same towards me....who would be happy if I was, who i could share my sorrow and joy. but the Demon speaks faintly in my ears - "know the end of your endless dream, me with my greatness will show you the cruel reality" Like all Dreams, i was late to realize it was a mere illusion...a mirage in the never ending desert hungry to thwart my every emotion toward her, She began to sway....her trust swayed silently in the center of darkness. I screamed for her but to my own sorrow none heard...the moon heard my call, in the melody of the moon light i wept as my dreams came crumbling before me. I was counting stars yet lost the moon, yet when I finally found the sun, darkness took over again. I stood helpless as time froze my steps...in your mild and mindless

thoughts you frayed every bit of my heart....my very foundation of hope was torn apart as you were my only hope. Why cant we be one...has time taken us for the better...or has our past made us furious and frightened? Trust....trust...trust, when will it ever be shown from you. have i sinned to great to deserve this from my savior? the one person whom showed me a glimpse of joy then take it back. silently cutting through my wounded heart when you were meant to mend those wounds. I know i have my share of pride...I know I have my share of guilt...but I am Human. I am bound to make mistakes...but mistakes I wish I can regret and to never repeat. My false pride may have carried me high, I was living in my pride alone, who only know what i wish, selfishly rejecting everything i see, only listening to myself and my self alone, But cant you see you broke that with such ease...for before my pride, my love for one is stronger...cant you see the wings i carry has no use before you as we both share the pair...i would only jump high yet land on the same ground, only when your in my arms I could reach the skies, yes! I wont deny...i tried to take the title of a God, trying to be greater then those around me, but the moment my love grew...my wings i shared with you, as i fell deep and felt the depth of my fall. It was worth the fall as sweet anguish it was to fall for one, as I have fallen in love.... When would you realize that all that you dig, you will only find a deep hole with my buried sorrow and evil past that I have tried hard to bury. When would you realize that I am dancing on the edge of this bloodied thorns holding its rose just for you....Do not torment me with what I have thrown aside. Hold me as I would hold you...only then will my greatest dream be reality. 



...YoGa...

  

Brushing of the past, with HOPE...

Hell yeah!! I was a bad person not worthy of any, but every man has his tale before judgement aroused. Once a man filled with sorrow, and need...need to be loved. Yet all I had was a false image of that fantasy, short yet it was a great run...as all humans will eventually realize their mistakes, I learnt from them. Yet a fear always engulfed the heart...of falling for the same mistakes again. But in love and life it has always been a gamble. The trust and emotions plays the most of them yet is it really our fault? is this mistake really ours to blame or can it be categorized as utter Betrayal? the betrayal of ones trust on that person. I thought for long, and the answer was clear....Hate. the total opposite of love, I learned to hate those who betrayed me, yet i did not seek vengeance, i did not wait for karma...but I know just that there will be a day when they would look upon me and regret their actions.  I have learned to hate....so easily one can be dropped from my ranks as the closest to my lowest. I do not forgive, I do not forget....I drove my anger and consumed my fear....fear of untrustworthy emotions, fear made me Hate the very foundations of humanity.

There's always a day when someone will eventually fuck you up so badly where you wish you could kill them with brick...well I have hurt many out of anger...late to realize that its a waste of effort and only prolonging the problem...but the satisfaction is undeniably GOOD. I became a man who choose to believe in words rather then actions due to my career path, But whats the point of verbally hurting them, when they don't change? let them go, and wash them of your life like they are a piece of garbage. Once a lover who would take a bullet for a girl...yet the bullet came from her itself. There will always be a time when a guy or girl would look back at their phone, see the name of their ex, as every memories of their time together flashes by...close their eyes and with a deep breath delete their ex name. There's this bloody truth about love...no matter how much you hate them, they still linger somewhere in your heart...a manufacturing defect of God himself.  

Yeah! I blame God....I wont deny I stopped believing in him before...I believed in the total opposite. Yes! I welcomed him without realizing the price I had to pay. In my silence and innocence he commanded, "dine with me, and behold I shall take back what has been deprived from you in their insolence shall be yours again forever" words of imaginary speech yet fruitful it was as it helped me realized another mistake. Where there is darkness there is always the light....shimmering in my life yet i walked its path and soon to understand my weakness...I AM HUMAN. I sinned by my lust and anger but i failed to realize there was always good surrounding me...My father, a few of my Good friends who have stood by my pain and suffering. I saw God....he came to me when i left him, he came to me when i was suffering, He came to me when i was finally beaten, he came to me even when I hated him, He came to me in the form of HOPE. 

Hope...it is the very foundation of being a human...no, it is hope that we life on. Hope of living, loving, caring, hope of humanity.....he showed it to me with the very reason i became a monster, He allowed me to sin, he allowed me to hate, he allowed me to curse and be filled with evil...knowing the day will come when I would fall on my knees again, he showed me the light where there was only darkness...he showed me my mistakes. He showed me my hope to move on and start fresh...He allowed me to wonder like a lost sheep without its shepherd, but he found me. He gave me all the worst, and he gave me the best when he thought i really deserved it. Yeah, he is there...God, he lives in everyone, he gave us the choice to choose in what we believe, good or bad, we are the reflection of god as he created us in his image, we can

choose to kill or choose to heal, he lives in us and does wonders through us.

A life i led once came crashing down, I was ignorant of  my ambition, my family and my life...irresponsible. It was a turning point for me after falling right down deep, and I stood back up...because I saw the light. thought I haven't reached it, i hope i will one day. I realized how futile it was to hate love itself...it always shows its way back into you...I began to love another. Only then i realized i could forgive the people for the betrayal they have done...because in the end...i am the winner, I loved a better person...I became the better man, I could forgive them for making me the man i am today, with all mistakes and dreams realized. I am proud to say what I was...because what i am now it beyond comparable to what i was. I grasped my ambition and lived my dreams, I flew where none could reach...i flew where those who betrayed my trust cant imagine. for me that's the greatest punishment they deserve...to watch someone they put down so bad live a happy life without them. Now that is sweet revenge....

Life in my eyes is simple...As we are humans, me are bound to make the wrong choices and make mistakes...stand back up...learn and never lose hope. Forgive those who betray you, trust me its not worth your time even thinking about them, Betrayal leaves scars in your life, but scars that only make you stronger...Learn to love and live life....enjoy all the wonders life can give you. Do what you can to make those dear to you closer...because life is short, we life once, why not live a great one with no regrets.

I wrote this to remind my self of who I was, my mistakes and my past and how i brushed my past to what I have become....to stay true to my words.


....YoGa....

You and Me....

I burn to make you understand how time invaded this life now filled with intense love...yet one wrong word and it all may come crashing down for our fates are envious and  filled with distant past and insecurities.
They envy you your dreams, so they'll let you drown

there is no answer why, there is no how, it's like the overpowering waves of the ocean, waiting to engulf us in sorrow... But we are here right now, with all dreams realized...knowing our fate we chose to gamble for our love has conquered all. What would we choose with still more time to do is still a question to be answered, we cant fall down when it's time to arise for No-one else can heal our wounds

When I was crying for my fears, bitter tears, But you made me see we're crazy running...Crazy running like we're running out of time. When what's real becomes just another source of hurt And when meaning's gone from every word rushing headlong without a second thought Out where reality awaits, I choose to fantasize and build myself another piece of this memory...a memory of lies where my hungry desire awoke...but it all found oblivion
In your embrace, all mistakes forgiven in your embrace...all the pain and fears washed away with one touch of an angel.

Once again taboo becomes our law, What we want seems taken by fate dwindling down a one way road turning
Away from our imaginary flower field where we used to lay beneath the sky, riding dreams together.

though bathed in fear, I'm just looking to live to learn how to live, Slowly starting to see it's me I will need to forgive because it seems like I'm stuck here between what I know and what I cannot know now
With too many choices of which way to go....You had the smile enough to pierce my guard and to take my soul off to faraway fantasy making a make believe world filled with just us and our never ending love. You told me I'll never be alone, cos you're right there

But this life ain't, it ain't for me alone and here I thought I could keep it for myself forsaken by my own solitude and shadows but you sliced the light right off my sun,We took a gamble with this love, like sailing through the storm with the waves rushing over to take us, we were battling against the tides, You were my beacon of salvation, I was your starlight, though I'd see it for myself yet The bigger the words. the greater the believe.... to Hold on to what we believe in...LOVE.

Your love came racing down my spine like a storm on my skin, With shaking hands, I'll guide your sweet kiss into my lips...gently savoring every moment of it with tenderness until I feel you within
And I know, I know that it's all about understanding
I know love is hidden inside your beautiful soul as it's crying
For love to conquer the day slowly dawning
I want you to know your fears have nothing on my reality for I'm high on the scent of your skin
I know we're riding endlessly into the sky, feel the life deep within for my love for you runs deep within my heart pierced for an eternity of just......You and ME.






...YoGa...

My Great Love....

Within a small hope, love lingers.. while I cast my eyes upon the morning sun, I only wonder the warmth of your cheeks, how shameful the sun would feel for not casting its light for the beauty of yours through the night...for the moon steals its light as the distance we share has stolen you from me. My only love sprung from my dearest heart, or might I say my only love has sprung from your heart? the brightness of your smile, such a heaven that birds would sing for its beauty, a smile the heavens fall in second and your laughter, such melodious music your laughter is. Who be me if I was not yours? I would speak a hundred words yet none could describe the stars I see in your eyes. I would swear upon death that it fears me to see those eyes swell with tears....as I would swear to keep them bright and those brimming smile which I treasure more then my very life itself. You left me so unsatisfied, you left me pondering on my lost soul for you have taken it as your feet strides a distance. I would wait a thousand years for your return for the greater hope, one day that I could hold you close and hear your breath. to feel your warmth and taste your sweet addictive lips. It was my sole happiness to imagine the world we would live in...together to never part not even by a sword though by a broken heart whom I swear to not happen. let death take me, and in death to I shall love you. Even if its your last night to give me...let me hold you that whole night and let me gaze upon your eyes as I kiss you tenderly. If your heart is full of me as mine of you...then I could say I have lived a great life yet only wish for more of you. Your love has filled a wound that run so deep...but no deeper then a well, for now it has become a sea....a sea of water waiting to overflow with love just for you. To me as my eye sees fit, heaven is where my arms would touch yours. Thought this love has been made miles away, though pain worries me pale, though my anguish to have you near hurts....I do not doubt my love for you would falter. Thereby I swear upon all that I hold dear...in all sorrow and darkness, let me be your light and you mine. face what we must and rise true...and our love will prevail. In the end if I am with you....then it is a life where many great love stories would follow.  

....YoGa....    

My Sweet Valentine...

If Diamonds were the symbol of love? then what would be the purpose of a heart beat? what would emotions and a couple of dove portray? Forgive me as I do not believe in treasures and wonders...my heart speaks through words, it speaks on its own....it speaks for you. 

 A heart that longs for love and affection, or a heart that always had it but never realized. So close you were yet so far you are, could my words reach you I wondered in my absence, yet you came.... swiftly you rekindled those long lost emotions buried deep, emotions I though I could never have again, Was it your joyful laughter, or your graceful smile....or was it just you. The answer was simple....it was just us....what we both are together, what you do to me...you made me realize wonders, you made me laugh, you made me smile, you made me dream about us, you made me wish, you made me realize how much a man could blush :-)

There are times when I wonder if we are made for each other, though its to soon to judge...I would rather say its to late to judge...for I have imagined A perfect life with you. I may say I am confused of this emotions, but clearly I know...we are perfect when we are together. I doubt there are people who laugh as much as we do, I doubt there are people who could talk and share the things we say....Though we have Ego's of our own, I'm glad we laugh it out till our tummy hurts the moment we speak. 

Your voice and laughter deems addictive to me, a day or two would pass without us talking but I would regret these days for I have missed so much. Yet I feel a deep sorrow, where necessity speaks...can we see this through the end? can love endure through sacrifices except through no demanding? As love itself is demanding, yet can it fall through all the distance we share? as painful as it deems, the pain I feel washes away with every laughter...sweet anguish it is for I have felt this pain before with another. If wait I must...then through hell I will go to endure every hurdle set on my path. 

I cant tell you the observations I made during the last few days touching my own life, nor can you...but I know, if our hearts were always together I would make none as I would be to occupied with laughter and joy for I am beside you. My heart is strong, It would hold yours firmly yet it would lose yours with great pain...let time proclaim this life I live... For now I shall imagine me to one day say this words "SHE IS MINE" when that time comes, I shall hold you close and utter those three words. If I were to live holding your hands, then I shall live holding your hands till  I die the same fate as Valentines itself. 


....Your Sweet Valentine...

The Great Dictator's Speech

I’m sorry, but I don’t want to be an emperor. That’s not my business. I don’t want to rule or conquer anyone. I should like to help everyone - if possible - Jew, Gentile - black man - white. We all want to help one another. Human beings are like that. We want to live by each other’s happiness - not by each other’s misery. We don’t want to hate and despise one another. In this world there is room for everyone. And the good earth is rich and can provide for everyone. The way of life can be free and beautiful, but we have lost the way.

Greed has poisoned men’s souls, has barricaded the world with hate, has goose-stepped us into misery and bloodshed. We have developed speed, but we have shut ourselves in. Machinery that gives abundance has left us in want. Our knowledge has made us cynical. Our cleverness, hard and unkind. We think too much and feel too little. More than machinery we need humanity. More than cleverness we need kindness and gentleness. Without these qualities, life will be violent and all will be lost....

The aeroplane and the radio have brought us closer together. The very nature of these inventions cries out for the goodness in men - cries out for universal brotherhood - for the unity of us all. Even now my voice is reaching millions throughout the world - millions of despairing men, women, and little children - victims of a system that makes men torture and imprison innocent people.

To those who can hear me, I say - do not despair. The misery that is now upon us is but the passing of greed - the bitterness of men who fear the way of human progress. The hate of men will pass, and dictators die, and the power they took from the people will return to the people. And so long as men die, liberty will never perish. .....

Soldiers! don’t give yourselves to brutes - men who despise you - enslave you - who regiment your lives - tell you what to do - what to think and what to feel! Who drill you - diet you - treat you like cattle, use you as cannon fodder. Don’t give yourselves to these unnatural men - machine men with machine minds and machine hearts! You are not machines! You are not cattle! You are men! You have the love of humanity in your hearts! You don’t hate! Only the unloved hate - the unloved and the unnatural! Soldiers! Don’t fight for slavery! Fight for liberty!

In the 17th Chapter of St Luke it is written: “the Kingdom of God is within man” - not one man nor a group of men, but in all men! In you! You, the people have the power - the power to create machines. The power to create happiness! You, the people, have the power to make this life free and beautiful, to make this life a wonderful adventure.

Then - in the name of democracy - let us use that power - let us all unite. Let us fight for a new world - a decent world that will give men a chance to work - that will give youth a future and old age a security. By the promise of these things, brutes have risen to power. But they lie! They do not fulfil that promise. They never will!

Dictators free themselves but they enslave the people! Now let us fight to fulfil that promise! Let us fight to free the world - to do away with national barriers - to do away with greed, with hate and intolerance. Let us fight for a world of reason, a world where science and progress will lead to all men’s happiness. Soldiers! in the name of democracy, let us all unite!

"CHARLIE CHAPLIN"

Confused...

What is it that I seek? at times I wish for solitude, to be in my own contempt and succumb to my pain and misery as I Always faced them being used to a lonely life....yet there was always a picture of happiness playing endlessly in my mind, to one day seek it...yet I feared if it would last. Then what is it again that I seek?...in a state of confusion as I am, my answer is still buried deep. Yes, there are such emotions as love and hate, yet for one my hate grew deeper as my love grew thinner because I have been betrayed by that very 'Love'....so is fear my strongest emotion then? Have I grown to fear the very name of love itself? or is it that I have consumed my fear and driven my anger? a question neither can answer.... There were a few who gave me hope of happiness....of love, to conquer my fear and start fresh...some I declined yet a few I foolishly accepted that has only lead to deeper feeling of guilt and failure for I have forgotten how to love....I have forgotten the joy I once had to love someone deeply. My life has took an un-explainable turn towards my career and my lust for fame that I have forsaken the thought of Love but diverted my sight for joy through friends. I guess humans are like that, we want to live by each others happiness but not each others misery. We don't want to despise one another as the world is already full of hatred and greed. is it that the world has lost its beauty, or have I just lost the beauty of life...i do not know. My answers might lie before me....Yet I ask my self again, "What is it that I seek?"   


...Yoga...