Parallel Universe

Walking slowly on the shores of blue with our hands together....you, with your beautiful black dress glittering under the moon and me, as poise as I could be to match that beauty....we walked for long. Me with every attempt trying to make you laugh as it was my utter joy hearing those musical laughter. We laughed and

talked for hours both never bored of each other...we sat by the beach allowing the winds to brush our

skins...while you looked up to the skies admiring the stars...I was looking at the brightest one beside me. hair that sits on your shoulder proudly as the wind gently blows them...eyes that glitter brighter then the endless stars above. Gently you rest your head on my shoulder...a shoulder you could always lean on. I continued to stare at your beauty as I gently raised your eyes to meet mine... with only the sound of the waves, under the silver moonlight, with billions of stars above us...I looked into your magnificent eyes lost in love...I said " You are every joy I always longed for, my every dream that made reality...you are the sole reason I am happy...I just want you to know that my heart will always be for you...because I am madly in love with you...I love you" and at that very last word...our lips touched...a magical moment with all barriers of shyness destroyed. We kissed gently with our eyes closed...only to brake apart to give each other a hug. You replied me saying "I love you to" and gave the most beautiful smile that has ever been seen....with a future left ahead for us both...with a world of just you and me...I put my arms around you as we continued our journey.  

...YoGa...

I See You...

Forsaken by thoughts, my mortal soul wondered...through caves and misty mountains yet there was never a purpose for me to tread its journey...there was no journey, there was no path. Aimlessly wondering the world with just false hope... yet

something kept me going? was it that I was to proud to succumb to failure? I did not know yet I walked my sinful path dancing under the rains of the past...seeking only but one thing....Hope. Years has passed and my age has turned its course...no path was shown yet stony rocks and the whispers of dreams. As I fell to my knees realizing the cruel reality of life, as tears poured washing the feet...there was but a sparkle of silver dust below...trembling with joy I raised my head one last time to look up upon my fate...shimmering faintly I saw the light...there it was all along. My silver moon, waiting to carry me when I fall...it illuminated my path as I walked...closer to the end of my journey accepting my end of this world

what I saw was not the gates of heaven...yet it was a Girl...as I stood in shock, a hand reached out to me shining like silver pearls...hair that gracefully sat on her shoulder blowing to the silent wind...a face that glowed like the sun...eyes deeper then the farthest stars....yet her smile....her smile..as it simply curved flawlessly, At that very moment I felt alive all over again, the pain of the past washed away...it was worth every pain this journey lashed against my will. She stood there......Like the

morning sun thy shined upon me comparable to the paradise I see through my deepest dreams. It shines away brightly touching souls with utter joy...angelic grace and flawless posture, With a smile that would smite even the heavens above...a mortal like me could never stood for long against its beauty. Tempted to live a life just to see a glimpse of its beauty...yet fearful to look upon a beauty so mesmerizing. Wishing every moment I would be a tear from those eyes gently flowing down. It was through you, faith was restored that beauty resides...through you the beauty of Gods wonders was known to men. It was through you men's worth was defined...as my thought ran deep, my eyes gazed upon your eyes...such power it held, like the stormy seas that could destroy all, yet there was patience and simplicity in them like the moonlight. As I was lost deep by its

waves...feeling all the hidden pain you shadowed over time Only to realize the smile was to hide the swell of tears buried within those eyes. A purpose was known to me...a chance for me to forever be of need...A promise was made to forever make that smile blossom. For every tear that slips by those smooth skin, a part of my life would be washed away...If i were allowed to...i would keep thy close for the warmth of your presence...not for my own but for the selfish joy of watching your smile...i could live a life bearing those burden cloaked by those eyes...for all that it is....all that you smile..There will forever be this mortal soul wishing your joy and rejoicing by your smile. To let you know that...I see you. :-)    

...YoGa...            

Dreams....

Please show me the way.. Let me see your dream, Come to me...as you behold the true nature of humanity, to unite love beneath a banner of love yet all dreams disappear when the dreamer awakens. It was inevitable that I would meet you on this path, for we share dreams and will learn the conclusion of our endless dreams. Do not falter, dreams lies beyond the horizon, never stop seeking it though its unreachable, for the sake of reality, I had a dream once....I remember that face, I was lying on a pit of an endless expanse of darkness, she approached smiling gently yet she had tears in her eyes hidden. I could see she was happy from the bottom of her heart...happy she found me, so happy that it seemed like it was her, not me that was saved from that pit. Even though I was at the brink of losing hope, that girl was so grateful that it made me jealous. "thank you" she told me, and by saying that i realized, by saving me....it was her she has saved. A dream I have nurtured and held to wishing i could find someone who would feel the same towards me....who would be happy if I was, who i could share my sorrow and joy. but the Demon speaks faintly in my ears - "know the end of your endless dream, me with my greatness will show you the cruel reality" Like all Dreams, i was late to realize it was a mere illusion...a mirage in the never ending desert hungry to thwart my every emotion toward her, She began to sway....her trust swayed silently in the center of darkness. I screamed for her but to my own sorrow none heard...the moon heard my call, in the melody of the moon light i wept as my dreams came crumbling before me. I was counting stars yet lost the moon, yet when I finally found the sun, darkness took over again. I stood helpless as time froze my steps...in your mild and mindless

thoughts you frayed every bit of my heart....my very foundation of hope was torn apart as you were my only hope. Why cant we be one...has time taken us for the better...or has our past made us furious and frightened? Trust....trust...trust, when will it ever be shown from you. have i sinned to great to deserve this from my savior? the one person whom showed me a glimpse of joy then take it back. silently cutting through my wounded heart when you were meant to mend those wounds. I know i have my share of pride...I know I have my share of guilt...but I am Human. I am bound to make mistakes...but mistakes I wish I can regret and to never repeat. My false pride may have carried me high, I was living in my pride alone, who only know what i wish, selfishly rejecting everything i see, only listening to myself and my self alone, But cant you see you broke that with such ease...for before my pride, my love for one is stronger...cant you see the wings i carry has no use before you as we both share the pair...i would only jump high yet land on the same ground, only when your in my arms I could reach the skies, yes! I wont deny...i tried to take the title of a God, trying to be greater then those around me, but the moment my love grew...my wings i shared with you, as i fell deep and felt the depth of my fall. It was worth the fall as sweet anguish it was to fall for one, as I have fallen in love.... When would you realize that all that you dig, you will only find a deep hole with my buried sorrow and evil past that I have tried hard to bury. When would you realize that I am dancing on the edge of this bloodied thorns holding its rose just for you....Do not torment me with what I have thrown aside. Hold me as I would hold you...only then will my greatest dream be reality. 



...YoGa...

  

Brushing of the past, with HOPE...

Hell yeah!! I was a bad person not worthy of any, but every man has his tale before judgement aroused. Once a man filled with sorrow, and need...need to be loved. Yet all I had was a false image of that fantasy, short yet it was a great run...as all humans will eventually realize their mistakes, I learnt from them. Yet a fear always engulfed the heart...of falling for the same mistakes again. But in love and life it has always been a gamble. The trust and emotions plays the most of them yet is it really our fault? is this mistake really ours to blame or can it be categorized as utter Betrayal? the betrayal of ones trust on that person. I thought for long, and the answer was clear....Hate. the total opposite of love, I learned to hate those who betrayed me, yet i did not seek vengeance, i did not wait for karma...but I know just that there will be a day when they would look upon me and regret their actions.  I have learned to hate....so easily one can be dropped from my ranks as the closest to my lowest. I do not forgive, I do not forget....I drove my anger and consumed my fear....fear of untrustworthy emotions, fear made me Hate the very foundations of humanity.

There's always a day when someone will eventually fuck you up so badly where you wish you could kill them with brick...well I have hurt many out of anger...late to realize that its a waste of effort and only prolonging the problem...but the satisfaction is undeniably GOOD. I became a man who choose to believe in words rather then actions due to my career path, But whats the point of verbally hurting them, when they don't change? let them go, and wash them of your life like they are a piece of garbage. Once a lover who would take a bullet for a girl...yet the bullet came from her itself. There will always be a time when a guy or girl would look back at their phone, see the name of their ex, as every memories of their time together flashes by...close their eyes and with a deep breath delete their ex name. There's this bloody truth about love...no matter how much you hate them, they still linger somewhere in your heart...a manufacturing defect of God himself.  

Yeah! I blame God....I wont deny I stopped believing in him before...I believed in the total opposite. Yes! I welcomed him without realizing the price I had to pay. In my silence and innocence he commanded, "dine with me, and behold I shall take back what has been deprived from you in their insolence shall be yours again forever" words of imaginary speech yet fruitful it was as it helped me realized another mistake. Where there is darkness there is always the light....shimmering in my life yet i walked its path and soon to understand my weakness...I AM HUMAN. I sinned by my lust and anger but i failed to realize there was always good surrounding me...My father, a few of my Good friends who have stood by my pain and suffering. I saw God....he came to me when i left him, he came to me when i was suffering, He came to me when i was finally beaten, he came to me even when I hated him, He came to me in the form of HOPE. 

Hope...it is the very foundation of being a human...no, it is hope that we life on. Hope of living, loving, caring, hope of humanity.....he showed it to me with the very reason i became a monster, He allowed me to sin, he allowed me to hate, he allowed me to curse and be filled with evil...knowing the day will come when I would fall on my knees again, he showed me the light where there was only darkness...he showed me my mistakes. He showed me my hope to move on and start fresh...He allowed me to wonder like a lost sheep without its shepherd, but he found me. He gave me all the worst, and he gave me the best when he thought i really deserved it. Yeah, he is there...God, he lives in everyone, he gave us the choice to choose in what we believe, good or bad, we are the reflection of god as he created us in his image, we can

choose to kill or choose to heal, he lives in us and does wonders through us.

A life i led once came crashing down, I was ignorant of  my ambition, my family and my life...irresponsible. It was a turning point for me after falling right down deep, and I stood back up...because I saw the light. thought I haven't reached it, i hope i will one day. I realized how futile it was to hate love itself...it always shows its way back into you...I began to love another. Only then i realized i could forgive the people for the betrayal they have done...because in the end...i am the winner, I loved a better person...I became the better man, I could forgive them for making me the man i am today, with all mistakes and dreams realized. I am proud to say what I was...because what i am now it beyond comparable to what i was. I grasped my ambition and lived my dreams, I flew where none could reach...i flew where those who betrayed my trust cant imagine. for me that's the greatest punishment they deserve...to watch someone they put down so bad live a happy life without them. Now that is sweet revenge....

Life in my eyes is simple...As we are humans, me are bound to make the wrong choices and make mistakes...stand back up...learn and never lose hope. Forgive those who betray you, trust me its not worth your time even thinking about them, Betrayal leaves scars in your life, but scars that only make you stronger...Learn to love and live life....enjoy all the wonders life can give you. Do what you can to make those dear to you closer...because life is short, we life once, why not live a great one with no regrets.

I wrote this to remind my self of who I was, my mistakes and my past and how i brushed my past to what I have become....to stay true to my words.


....YoGa....

You and Me....

I burn to make you understand how time invaded this life now filled with intense love...yet one wrong word and it all may come crashing down for our fates are envious and  filled with distant past and insecurities.
They envy you your dreams, so they'll let you drown

there is no answer why, there is no how, it's like the overpowering waves of the ocean, waiting to engulf us in sorrow... But we are here right now, with all dreams realized...knowing our fate we chose to gamble for our love has conquered all. What would we choose with still more time to do is still a question to be answered, we cant fall down when it's time to arise for No-one else can heal our wounds

When I was crying for my fears, bitter tears, But you made me see we're crazy running...Crazy running like we're running out of time. When what's real becomes just another source of hurt And when meaning's gone from every word rushing headlong without a second thought Out where reality awaits, I choose to fantasize and build myself another piece of this memory...a memory of lies where my hungry desire awoke...but it all found oblivion
In your embrace, all mistakes forgiven in your embrace...all the pain and fears washed away with one touch of an angel.

Once again taboo becomes our law, What we want seems taken by fate dwindling down a one way road turning
Away from our imaginary flower field where we used to lay beneath the sky, riding dreams together.

though bathed in fear, I'm just looking to live to learn how to live, Slowly starting to see it's me I will need to forgive because it seems like I'm stuck here between what I know and what I cannot know now
With too many choices of which way to go....You had the smile enough to pierce my guard and to take my soul off to faraway fantasy making a make believe world filled with just us and our never ending love. You told me I'll never be alone, cos you're right there

But this life ain't, it ain't for me alone and here I thought I could keep it for myself forsaken by my own solitude and shadows but you sliced the light right off my sun,We took a gamble with this love, like sailing through the storm with the waves rushing over to take us, we were battling against the tides, You were my beacon of salvation, I was your starlight, though I'd see it for myself yet The bigger the words. the greater the believe.... to Hold on to what we believe in...LOVE.

Your love came racing down my spine like a storm on my skin, With shaking hands, I'll guide your sweet kiss into my lips...gently savoring every moment of it with tenderness until I feel you within
And I know, I know that it's all about understanding
I know love is hidden inside your beautiful soul as it's crying
For love to conquer the day slowly dawning
I want you to know your fears have nothing on my reality for I'm high on the scent of your skin
I know we're riding endlessly into the sky, feel the life deep within for my love for you runs deep within my heart pierced for an eternity of just......You and ME.






...YoGa...

My Great Love....

Within a small hope, love lingers.. while I cast my eyes upon the morning sun, I only wonder the warmth of your cheeks, how shameful the sun would feel for not casting its light for the beauty of yours through the night...for the moon steals its light as the distance we share has stolen you from me. My only love sprung from my dearest heart, or might I say my only love has sprung from your heart? the brightness of your smile, such a heaven that birds would sing for its beauty, a smile the heavens fall in second and your laughter, such melodious music your laughter is. Who be me if I was not yours? I would speak a hundred words yet none could describe the stars I see in your eyes. I would swear upon death that it fears me to see those eyes swell with tears....as I would swear to keep them bright and those brimming smile which I treasure more then my very life itself. You left me so unsatisfied, you left me pondering on my lost soul for you have taken it as your feet strides a distance. I would wait a thousand years for your return for the greater hope, one day that I could hold you close and hear your breath. to feel your warmth and taste your sweet addictive lips. It was my sole happiness to imagine the world we would live in...together to never part not even by a sword though by a broken heart whom I swear to not happen. let death take me, and in death to I shall love you. Even if its your last night to give me...let me hold you that whole night and let me gaze upon your eyes as I kiss you tenderly. If your heart is full of me as mine of you...then I could say I have lived a great life yet only wish for more of you. Your love has filled a wound that run so deep...but no deeper then a well, for now it has become a sea....a sea of water waiting to overflow with love just for you. To me as my eye sees fit, heaven is where my arms would touch yours. Thought this love has been made miles away, though pain worries me pale, though my anguish to have you near hurts....I do not doubt my love for you would falter. Thereby I swear upon all that I hold dear...in all sorrow and darkness, let me be your light and you mine. face what we must and rise true...and our love will prevail. In the end if I am with you....then it is a life where many great love stories would follow.  

....YoGa....    

My Sweet Valentine...

If Diamonds were the symbol of love? then what would be the purpose of a heart beat? what would emotions and a couple of dove portray? Forgive me as I do not believe in treasures and wonders...my heart speaks through words, it speaks on its own....it speaks for you. 

 A heart that longs for love and affection, or a heart that always had it but never realized. So close you were yet so far you are, could my words reach you I wondered in my absence, yet you came.... swiftly you rekindled those long lost emotions buried deep, emotions I though I could never have again, Was it your joyful laughter, or your graceful smile....or was it just you. The answer was simple....it was just us....what we both are together, what you do to me...you made me realize wonders, you made me laugh, you made me smile, you made me dream about us, you made me wish, you made me realize how much a man could blush :-)

There are times when I wonder if we are made for each other, though its to soon to judge...I would rather say its to late to judge...for I have imagined A perfect life with you. I may say I am confused of this emotions, but clearly I know...we are perfect when we are together. I doubt there are people who laugh as much as we do, I doubt there are people who could talk and share the things we say....Though we have Ego's of our own, I'm glad we laugh it out till our tummy hurts the moment we speak. 

Your voice and laughter deems addictive to me, a day or two would pass without us talking but I would regret these days for I have missed so much. Yet I feel a deep sorrow, where necessity speaks...can we see this through the end? can love endure through sacrifices except through no demanding? As love itself is demanding, yet can it fall through all the distance we share? as painful as it deems, the pain I feel washes away with every laughter...sweet anguish it is for I have felt this pain before with another. If wait I must...then through hell I will go to endure every hurdle set on my path. 

I cant tell you the observations I made during the last few days touching my own life, nor can you...but I know, if our hearts were always together I would make none as I would be to occupied with laughter and joy for I am beside you. My heart is strong, It would hold yours firmly yet it would lose yours with great pain...let time proclaim this life I live... For now I shall imagine me to one day say this words "SHE IS MINE" when that time comes, I shall hold you close and utter those three words. If I were to live holding your hands, then I shall live holding your hands till  I die the same fate as Valentines itself. 


....Your Sweet Valentine...